Do you ever get the feeling that you’re obsolete? Last night I was restless and antsy. Everyone in my world seemed to have something to do – except me.

A few friends called me to chitchat – I amused myself with that for a bit. I was glad they called because I was feeling lonely for some unfathomable reason.

The hub was off earning money.

Boycub had a friend over and they were playing video games, guitars, and watching movies.

Babycub was spending the night at a friend’s house.

The older kids are busy with their lives – as they should be.

It came to me while I wandered around the house, wandered outside the house, flipped the computer on, flipped the computer off, flipped the tv on, flipped the tv off, picked up a book, put down a book, etc.

Nobody really needs me anymore.

The world would still spin. Life would still go on. Things would be the same if I was zapped from the planet and taken to some new universe.

I’m not feeling sorry for myself – it’s no pity party that I’m on. It’s simply reality.

It seems I have done my part for those that I love. My family can stand on its own. My friends are strong and can do whatever they need to do without me.

I love those people and I know they love me – yet – there is nothing so remarkable about me that would make my loss anything that cannot be dealt with.

Weird, huh? Weird to realize that no matter how important we think we are – we really are just another person in the lives of so many.

Would they miss me? They damn well better or I’d be pissed as hell.

They just don’t “need” me. Nobody really does.

I should have mentioned one more thing. At the end of the night when all was quiet there was a text message that came through. It was a personal conversation – yet – for a few minutes I was “needed”. How odd that little things like that simply can make you feel warm and fuzzy all over inside.

Peace